Feelings

Well we had another round of referrals in April - we're up to June 15, 2006. Another set is due in a few weeks.

This is the first time in a long, long while that I feel like I'm really close. (Wait, have I written that before?) The tension is beginning to rise a bit. I want to tell people - to share my excitement. But. I also feel like it's such old news to my close friends and family that they are tired of it already!

So much of the situation has changed. Friends waiting with me became parents a few years ago - they have toddlers now. Everyone is older; two of my nephews have children themselves and another is getting married. Even the plans I'd tentatively made, for house sitters and daycare, have changed! I have a different job, so does my traveling companion. What if I have to travel by myself? What if I can't get the daycare I want?

Everything has to be rethought. Excitement tinged with confusion. Ah, pending parenthood!

M